absent elements build your comfortable defense
the Greyest of Blue Skies

stronger still like an emptiness you'll never fill
Kris' Friends
slow sinking feeling kills the mood you're conveying
Kris' Profile
it feels like the first time that we'd fallen behind
Finger Eleven
and we'd faltered too far down, no one could save us

Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
11:57 am Tuesday : Late Night.
We drank too much wine last night and thought that the hot tub would be a good idea. Yeah. Well, it was time to crash at about 4am and by 8am I was awake and regretting mixing the wine with the dehydrating hot tub. I have the headache from Hell. Fortunately, I sincerely believe that the hangover is worth it for such a fun night. I would feel differently if I was throwing up right now, but the headache I can deal with.

current mood: hungry

(3 dreams | awake and dreaming?)

Sunday, January 11th, 2004
3:54 pm Sunday : Blah.
In the last 5 days (120 hours) I have spent about 40 hours staring at this screen. I conclude that I have officially become addicted to my computer.

Due to my perpetual boredom, I redesigned my livejournal again. Check it out if you have nothing better to do. It's cool, but be forewarned that it's based on a band that isn't popular in the US so it may not make sense to some people.

Attention: Becca, Gavin & Jonathan. You guys know who I'm talking about so take a look at my new layout and let me know what you think.

current mood: bored

(4 dreams | awake and dreaming?)

Friday, January 9th, 2004
11:29 pm Friday : Hell Yeah!

You are going to Marry orlando Bloom. He will
always treat you right and is very romantic. He
will do anything for you. He is very polite and
has deep brown eyes and is very good looking
(which is another plus!). He can make anythind
cheesy look really good (like sliding down
stairs on a shield shooting arrows or wearing
pointy ears for example). Congrats!!

Which male celebrity are you going to marry?

What kind of Final Fantasy Character would I be? by TheBlueParadox
Your Name/Handle
Your Hair StyleCute Bouncy Pink
Your Clothing StyleLoose Fitting Red Robe
Your Weapon of ChoiceBo-staff
Your MissionTo Save the Universe.
Your Role in the FantasyTrue Hero:"We leave together."
Created with quill18's MemeGen!


current mood: bored

(2 dreams | awake and dreaming?)

10:44 am Friday : Thursday Night.
Going out for a drink and then staying up until 5am talking to someone special about absolutely everything you can think of can be better than sex sometimes.

current mood: complacent

(awake and dreaming?)

Thursday, January 8th, 2004
11:55 pm Thursday : Cool.
Biancakris99 in Death Throws the Die
In this powerfully stated spy thriller, biancakris99 (Julia Roberts) is a hard-nosed cop with a three movie deal. She promises to silence katrina10 (Angelina Jolie) before crime kingpin, qtpie78743 (Emma Thompson), reaches her. With guns blazing, she demolishes a secret caravan recklessly. Unfortunately, a cavalcade of elite male strippers stands in her way.
Produced by ianiceboy


legolas
Congratulations! You're Legolas!


Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
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I absolutely love Orlando Bloom. That's all I have to say.

current mood: blah

(awake and dreaming?)

Saturday, January 3rd, 2004
1:26 pm Saturday : Survey Crap.
In the last 24 hours, have you ______?
01. Cried: Yep.
02. Bought something: Yep.
03. Gotten sick: I'm hungover. Does that count?
04. Sang: Yes.
05. Eaten: Yes.
07. Felt stupid: Of course.
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: Define love.
09. Met someone new: Yep.
10. Moved on: Not quite.
11. Talked to an ex: Hell no!
12. Missed an ex: Not really the person, but I missed the relationship.
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: Yep!
14. Had a serious talk: Does it count if I was drunk?
15. Missed someone: Always.
16. Hugged someone: Yep, and it was a special someone.
17. Fought with your parent: No, for a change.
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: No.

Who _______?
01. Have you known the longest: Corey.
02. Do you argue with the most: I'm not really an arguing person.
03. Do you always get along with: Michael.
04. Is the trustworthiest: Trina, Becca, and Ash.
05. Makes you laugh the most: Becca.
06. Has been there through all the hard times: No one.
07. Has the coolest parents: I'll have to ponder this one.
08. Has the coolest siblings: I don't really know.
09. Is the most blunt: Laird, unfortunately.
10. Is the smartest: Chelsea.

Personal Stuff:
01. Who is your role model: I don't have one.
02. What are some of your pet peeves: Body hair and stupid people with driver's liscenses.
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Yes, it happens relatively often.
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: Who hasn't?
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: I would like to say no, but it seems like I always pursue the Leading Man types.
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): Yes and I suck for doing it.
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: Yep.
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: It depends on the situation.
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Relationship, but nothing too serious.
10. Want someone you don't have right now: Yep.
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: Yes.
12. Do you want to get married: Yes, if I ever find the right guy.
13. Do you want kids: Hell no!
14. Do you believe in psychics: Not really.
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: No.
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: My back, I s'pose.
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: I can be insightful from time to time.
18. Are you happy with you: Not even close.
19. Are you happy with your life: Absolutely not.
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: HE wouldn't be leaving this month.




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current mood: bored

(awake and dreaming?)

11:07 am Saturday : Last Night.
I would've loved to have gone to New Orleans with everyone last night but things didn't quite work out that way. I can't complain though, because I had a great time doing some local bar-hopping. It definitely made up for my shitty New Year's Eve.

current mood: bored

(awake and dreaming?)

Friday, January 2nd, 2004
3:31 pm Friday : Bored.
Your Love Situation by Amberishjewel
Username?
Your Love Is...Soft
During Lovemaking You Act...Like a child, always playing
Your Partner Is...Your master
Your Partner Has Said That You...Are their favorite person
Your Love is Summed Up In A Quote."One must know how to seduce"
Created with quill18's MemeGen!


are you sexy? by jeska
your name
do YOU think you are?
male/female?
on a scale from 1-10 you are a7
other people say you arein need of a makeover
your sex appeal will last tilJune 6, 2071
Created with quill18's MemeGen!


current mood: blank

(awake and dreaming?)

Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
6:59 pm Wednesday : New Year's.
Damn. This is going to suck. I guess I'm just going to stay home tonight. It'll be the worst New Year's ever... Oh well. It's not that big of a deal, I guess.

current mood: crappy

(awake and dreaming?)

Monday, December 29th, 2003
10:14 pm Monday : Appreciation.
Wow. It's during times like these when you find out who your true friends are. Now I remember why I was so close to John before he died; he was always there for me if I needed someone to tell me that they're glad I was born, even if no one else cares. I miss that.

current mood: crappy

(awake and dreaming?)

1:00 am Monday
Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...) by sparkledee
Name
Your Secret Kink ThingClowns excite you. A lot.
Your Sexual StrengthYour super bed gymnastics!
Your Sexual WeaknessYour freaky noises during sex
Your Likely STDYou're clean!
How Many Partners in Crime?7
Created with quill18's MemeGen!



I would just like to say that being loud during sex is not necessarily a bad thing. Um... That's what I've heard, anyway. =)

He leaves in ten days. I have the feeling that I'm going to do a lot of crying... Well, all that I can do now is make sure to enjoy every minute that I have left to spend with him.

current mood: sad

(2 dreams | awake and dreaming?)

Friday, December 26th, 2003
10:34 pm Friday : Yay!
He's on his way to pick me up.

current mood: chipper

(awake and dreaming?)

Wednesday, December 17th, 2003
11:18 pm Wednesday : Tag. You're It.
I hate the telephone. Here's a new, equally frustrating, way to play phone tag:

8pm
Him: Hey. Is there anything going on tonight?
Me: I don't know. What are you doing?
Him: I'm not sure. I'll call you back when I find out.

9pm
Him: Have you talked to anyone?
Me: Not really, have you?
Him: Not yet. I'll call you back soon.

10:30pm
Him: We're going to Walk-On's if you want to meet up with us.
Me: Uh, I don't know. What are you doing after that?
Him: Probably going to the Varsity or something.
Me: Just call me back in a little while and I'll see what's up.

current mood: tired

(awake and dreaming?)

Monday, December 15th, 2003
10:49 am Monday : Carpe Diem.
Saturday night rocked. We had so much fun but I still wish that he wasn't leaving. It's going to hurt, but I might as well just live for the moment, right?

current mood: contemplative

(1 dream | awake and dreaming?)

Wednesday, December 10th, 2003
2:44 pm Wednesday : Damn.
I really wish that he wasn't leaving... I don't really know what to do now. I know what we're both basically thinking, but it's too late to do anything about it now.

This sucks. I finally understand how it feels and I'm sorry for giving you a hard time, my friend.

current mood: crappy

(awake and dreaming?)

Sunday, November 30th, 2003
8:01 am Sunday : Saturday Night.
Last night was exactly what I needed to let go of some excess stress that I've been harboring for weeks. I had a great time and was in great company all night. The bar was packed but we managed to find just enough empty space in a good location for us to squeeze into. We remained in that spot all night while talking about anything, everything and absolutely nothing. It was refreshing to hold a real conversation with a member of the opposite sex that was not driven and manipulated by the desire to get laid. I was surprised at how comfortable I was with him all night. It was great to spend some time with him away from school and the infinite amounts of bullshit that accompany everyday life.

current mood: chipper

(1 dream | awake and dreaming?)

Thursday, November 27th, 2003
11:09 am Thursday : Turkey Day.
Happy You Must Spend Time With Your Psychotic Family Day. This is going to suck.

current mood: crappy

(awake and dreaming?)

Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
8:28 pm Tuesday : Grrr!
Cell phones suck.

Now what?

current mood: aggravated

(awake and dreaming?)

Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
5:12 pm Saturday : Wishful Thinking?
Hmmm... Now, it could just be wishful thinking, but it almost seems like he's interested in me. I could definitely deal with that. It's a very intriguing idea. I'll just have to wait and see.

current mood: hopeful

(awake and dreaming?)

Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
7:54 pm Tuesday : Cancel.
I'm gonna just cancel the study session. I'm not planning on being awake until 3am... I need a little more rest and I think I'll get more accomplished studying on my own tonight. Kat and I are meeting in the lobby at 8am if anyone needs to discuss any of the information.

(awake and dreaming?)

5:50 pm Tuesday : Tuesday.
It was nice to have a somewhat normal day today. Unfortunately, I must start my ushering duties for Our Town tomorrow for 4136 credit. That sucks. I'll be getting back to work the following week as well. I really don't want to go back to the club but I'm hoping it will only be until mid-December. Then I'll have the time to commit to a real job.

Anyway, I will be having a couple of people over tonight to study for Les' test. Call me if you want to actually study and we can decide on a time.

You are FIREFLY!
You are FIREFLY! An adventuerous little pony with a
"Take no crap" additude. You
trademark move is the double inside out loop,
and your just an all around awesome little
pony!


What old skool my little pony are you?
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current mood: blank

(awake and dreaming?)

Sunday, November 16th, 2003
7:14 pm Sunday : Wow.
Oops. I lost my weekend. Where'd it go? I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. =(

Masterpieces closed today. I'm still not sure how I feel about that. I'm thrilled about having a little more time to do the things that I need to do. I will miss the rush and the passion that I feel when I'm on stage but everything eventually comes to an end...

current mood: contemplative

(1 dream | awake and dreaming?)

Friday, November 14th, 2003
12:43 am Friday : Good Night.
I'm astounded that the house has been packed for 5 out of 6 of our shows. I didn't expect that much interest in a studio show. Wow.

Smirk
You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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Good night, all.

current mood: drained

(awake and dreaming?)

Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
11:58 am Wednesday : Tattoo?
Everyone talking about tattoos lately really makes me want another one. It is a really good thing that I'm broke as fuck right now because two is more than enough. I do, however, desire to have the one on my ankle covered up with my zodiac sign one day. It's going to be a really long time before I can afford that though. Oh well.

current mood: blank

(awake and dreaming?)

Tuesday, November 11th, 2003
10:07 pm Tuesday : Whatever.
Well, I guess I'll be anti-social too. It's a damn shame that no one's there when I really want to talk to them. Oh well. I guess I'll just go to bed early.

current mood: disappointed

(awake and dreaming?)


Finger Eleven

Absent Elements

Everyone plays along
Get them giving or steal the life they’re breathing
They’ll grow sickened
Take their secret codes and signals
Discover all they know
Keep up the pace now until it all dries up

You’ll never find out now
That all these absent elements
Build your comfortable defense stronger still
Like an emptiness

Way too early to consider losing
Vacant staring may discover some reflection
Or may discover none
Just think what you’ve done
And watch it all add up

You’ll never find out now
That all these absent elements
Build your comfortable defense stronger still
Like an emptiness you’ll never fill

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