Kris (biancakris99) wrote,
Kris
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Apprehensive.

This long weekend just keeps getting worse and worse. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? If so, I can't seem to reach it.

It is obviously a desperate situation when a shrink tells you to cut ties with your family. I have come to the realization that he's right. Everyone who brings me down needs to be out of my life.

Anyway, I made the most serious decision of my life today after listening to my father tell me that I am a hopeless fuck-up. No matter how much I accomplish, it will never be good enough for my family. I'm a senior in Pre-Law with a 3.5 GPA but that is still not good enough because I have made a couple of mistakes along the way. Apparently everyone is allowed to make mistakes except for me.

It is time for really drastic measures to be taken. I'm apprehensive but I know what I have to do if I want to maintain any semblance of sanity. Wish me luck if you even care what happens to me.
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Dude...call if you need someone to rant to...
I'm never too sick to listen.
I wish the best of luck!!! :)
Don't let anyone call you a fuck-up specially not your dad. They have no right to say that. I know it's hard not to let that kind of stuff get to you cuz i have that problem. But hang in there and good luck with whatever life brings you. Stand tall and be strong!!!!!
Girl,
Yah, I am far away. But this decision to extract everyone who brings you down is something I had to do, and did, last year. It's something almost everyone has to face, especially the unique and creative wonders of the world out there. Like YOU and me. I wish you the best of luck and you are, always, in my nightly prayers.
Maybe its freaky, but I basically scroll through the list of people in my life in the last four years, all of them, good bad and ugly, and pray for them. I pray extra hard for those who brought me down, because they need it. The ones who love, and love in return, they are on to something, and I pray with extra hope that they follow that something in their lives.
Maybe that didn't make sense, but maybe you get it.
So, the bad stuff is easy to believe, but don't let THE MAN get you down. You are beautiful. I love X-tina for that song.
Right on! Do what you have to do! Never let anyone convince you that your less than you are. You have to go through certain things and phases to learn what's important is that you grow and move on. Keep truckin! My ear is always open.